“Example of Moses”

Be ready by the morning, and come up in the morning to Mount Sinai, and present yourself there to me on the top of the mountain. No one shall come up with you, and let no one be seen throughout all the mountain. Let no flocks or herds graze opposite that mountain.

Exodus 34:2-3 (ESV)

I’ve woken up with a coffee headache all week. Maybe longer. I’m not getting enough coffee in the morning. I get a full cup and then maybe a half. Or I just drink half of my second because it’s the bottom of the carafe. The dregs. And I have done absolutely nothing to fix the problem. I forget about it until 5:30 a.m. when I have the headache again.

There are a lot of things wrong, but I’m not attempting to fix them. When did I get so apathetic? Existential? Lazy?

This is the way it’s always been? Nothing is going to change? I can’t make a difference? Just want to throw in the towel and walk away?

I like this verse. It is God speaking. He is telling Moses exactly what to do. And you KNOW Moses doesn’t always obey. And you KNOW he can be kind of whiney. No one ever listens to him. And he isn’t a good speaker and please choose someone else.

I can really identify.

I’m not the person I was. And it probably happens to lots of us. We’re in college or fresh out of college and we’re loaded with an expensive (yet worthless) education and we’re ready to conquer the world! And then nothing happens.

I’ve been reading about the educational nature of church. Teach and teach and teach and teach. Do we ever advance to the next level. Are we ever promoted. Do we ever get a send off to go out and work. Or are we all sitting around acquiring knowledge? The same knowledge.

I cannot believe it’s another day. At least it’s Friday. And I get to eat, drink and be merry Saturday and Sunday!

“Looking for a color in a shade of gray. Looking for love in a drop of rain. Trying to find change from the old mundane. But everything I do just feels the same.”

Closer – Shawn McDonald

This has been my song for far too long.