Life Beyond Regret

Boy! That last chapter just flew by. What was it even about? Pride? Vanity? Oh, yeah! Being Humble. The Discipline of Humbling Yourself. I remember when I wrote last week; the day I read the chapter, but had yet to read the Study Guide Questions. I lamented that I thought I didn't get as much out of the Discipline of Prayer as I had Joy or Slowness. And I cannot say much for the Humility one either.

I am thinking that I should probably go back and work some more upon my Prayer life. But I could argue that I should pick a couple to work on and move beyond when I've mastered the first. Not that one can ever master them. Only Jesus mastered them and mastered them all.

I have yet to set aside 5 minutes for prayer. It's just not high on my list of priorities. I know, I'm horrible.

And now, I move onto Confession. I'm just not ready. I'm reading the book to get to the end, but I'm not really training for righteousness.

I took a Bible class at church over a year ago called Spiritual Warfare and realized that there was something more there to be offered – Spiritual Healing. And there were books to go along with it. And I discovered how far I have fallen from what is to be expected.

Now that isn't really being fair to myself. I do not think I'm the only one. And I didn't really fall, so much as I was never really trained in the art. Our Christian culture is just as watered down as our secular education.

So I plug on. This is going to be a hard one. I'm not quite sure how I will handle it yet.

And I'm starting to question the benefits of the route I've taken. There must be a better way. And accountability is better served by real people. The question is …  Am I ready to be held accountable by real people? Or am I a fake. I think I'm a fake. There. It's said.

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness.
We do not know what we ought to pray for,
but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.
Romans 8:26 (NIV)